Thinking dark thoughts

Sometimes you go thru life with your eyes closed. Or worse, your mind. You are so damn concerned about just making it thru this day and then the next and then the next, you forget that's not what the whole thing is supposed to be about. And you end up missing out on so much, so much that could have changed your life in so many ways....so you reach this point where nothing you have seems worth the price you paid for it....and you suddenly wonder, what the hell do i do now?????????????